Health & Medical Addiction & Recovery

The Rewards Outweight the Discomforts - Hank"s Quit Story



Updated March 31, 2014.

I'd like to introduce you to Hank, a member of the About.com Smoking Cessation forum. After smoking for 34 long years, Hank finally found just the right mix of determination, support and patience to quit smoking for good. He generously shares his story here with the hope that it may help those of you yet to quit find and tap into your own inner resolve.

The ability to conquer nicotine addiction exists within all of us. Believe in yourself; be willing to do the work it takes to quit smoking, and you too can experience the freedom Hank now enjoys.

From Hank:
Several years ago, my wife underwent her scheduled physical checkup, and thankfully was in good health, but her doctor, based on the x-rays he took, inquired as to how long she had been smoking. The horrible thing is -- she never smoked; she just lived with an inconsiderate man who didn’t see anything wrong with smoking inside his “castle,” wife and kids notwithstanding. That same man watched his father die from cancer and promised his dad that he would quit smoking. In typical junkie fashion though, he neglected to tell his father exactly when that would happen.

Fast-forward five years...


The great state of Texas announced an extra $1 tax on every pack of cigarettes sold beginning January 1, 2007. On December 31, 2006, I bought three packs of cigarettes and informed myself that when they were gone, I was going to cease my 34-year addiction. This wasn’t a financial decision, as I could certainly afford the extra buck. But I coupled the price hike with considerations of my health, my family and the fact that smokers were becoming more ostracized everyday, and decided to quit cold turkey.

So on January 3, 2007, at 6:05 p.m., I stubbed out my last cigarette and with no fanfare of any sort, began methodically washing ashtrays and spraying air freshener all over the house. I’m ashamed to report that 20+ years of smoking in a house can’t be swept away that simply.

Over the ensuing months, we had our carpets professionally cleaned, washed all the curtains, deep-cleaned the furniture, and painted most of the walls. Yet there are still times when I walk into the computer room and catch the unmistakable stale stench of old smoke and ash. I imagine that only time will remove all vestiges of my previous life, but my wife and kids assure me the house smells 100-percent better than it used to, so I take some comfort in that.

The early days of my quit were by far the most difficult.

Conquering the physical dependence on nicotine is not easy (he said, preaching to the choir). Armed with nothing more than ice water and an unshakable resolve, I detoxed alone, not even informing friends and family (other than my wife), that I had quit smoking. I wanted to see how long it took others to realize that I was no longer defined, even in part, by an addiction.

Curiously, it was my smoking friends who never even noticed I had quit until my wife made mention of it one evening when we were visiting. They have since treated me differently, almost keeping me at arm’s length and excluding me from certain gatherings, and that hurt at first. However, I now realize this avoidance stems primarily from their inability to quit smoking themselves, and my presence manifests a certain amount of shame and embarrassment in them. I don’t lecture, I don’t wave at smoke if it wafts in my direction. I don’t place any value judgments on them at all. Yet it is obvious that they feel uncomfortable smoking around me. My quit is far too valuable to me to worry excessively about this, but I do find it worth noting. When they are finally ready for their own quit, I will be their biggest champion and cheerleader.

Now for the good stuff.


On the second day of my quit, through fate, serendipity or just plain old good luck, I stumbled upon the About.com Smoking Cessation forum. Once I started reading, I couldn’t stop -- and I read everything. I read the year and more milestones, the new member stories and general chat. I read it all. It was extremely reassuring to know that I wasn’t doing this alone.

Several of the forum angels (you know who you are and God bless you) were always quick to welcome the newbies, cheer on the not-so-newbies, and just plain “be there” for whoever needed a virtual hug or a bit of a pep talk. I was able to always find what I needed, be it an assurance that dreams about smoking are normal, to the confirmation that, yes, your fingernails do indeed grow faster when you quit smoking. I spent hour upon hour lurking in the forums, posting sometimes, but gaining positive reinforcement even when it wasn’t specifically directed to me.

I gained (and subsequently lost) 20 pounds in the past year.

Weather permitting, I rollerblade 4 miles a day (and I am an old guy). My tongue is now pink instead of coated with whatever that garbage is that cigarettes used to put there. My teeth are whiter. My sense of smell has never been keener. When presented with the option, I’ll take the stairs instead of the elevator. I went from having severe sleep apnea to not snoring at all. And all this occurred in my first year; I can’t wait to see what happens down the road.

It’s my fervent hope that this post is digested by some of the “newbies” here, as well as by those that have already taken this journey with me. I know that I read countless milestones when I first found this website, and wasn’t able to respond to most of them. So I hope the lurkers can take something away from this and know that many of us have been where they are right now.

Quitting smoking was not easy, and all of us who have done so are justifiably proud of our accomplishment, but I want the new quitters to know that the rewards far outweigh the temporary discomforts and symptoms you may be experiencing right now. I am at the point where I hardly ever think about smoking, other than to visit the forums to encourage all who are fighting the good fight. This can be done, and there is no better gift to present to oneself.

Once you have seriously made a personal commitment to quit...


...there is no difference in where you are than to where I am other than the mere passage of time. Each day gets a wee bit easier, and while we must remain ever vigilant, thoughts of smoking soon fade away like bad dreams.

When I look at my Quit Meter and see that I haven’t smoked over 5,400 cigarettes, I am flabbergasted. Assuming each one of those took five minutes to smoke, that is 450 unproductive hours I have reclaimed, and healthy hours at that. Think about it -- almost 19 days of smoking that I didn’t do this past year. I feel like I was chained to cigarettes for 34 years, and this feeling of freedom I now enjoy is almost inexplicable.

So then, with one hand on the doorknob to the clubhouse, I will keep my other extended for all those who are right behind me.

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