It seems to you that you have been together since forever and you are meant to be, but your ex has recently decided to go a separate way.
But you ardently want to get your ex boyfriend back! You are both in a confusing and stressful state of mind and purring gas on the fire by obsessively trying to contact your ex will worsen the situation, probably in an irremediable way.
Against all odds, your relationship is not in a terminal stage.
You just need to step away from all the bad things that have caused the break up with your loved one.
You need to get him back, that's for sure, but patience is more of a helping hand than desperation and continuous hurting.
Forget about throwing the blame on anything and anyone.
Unfortunate situations will always occur.
Your only concern should be personal growth, and I'm not talking about growing in kilograms! Focus on changing your career, if better job opportunities occur (or even getting a job if you are unemployed).
First, it will increase your already damaged self esteem, and second, it will prove to your ex that you are a strong, independent and motivated person.
The kind of person he is not right now.
Remember the law of attraction in couples? This proves that he will always seek in a potential life companion the kind of qualities he lacks.
Your ex is not yet ready to leave all the unbearable bad things behind.
He has his own rhythm of dealing with problems.
All there's left for you to do is to adjust to his timing and let him see in you exactly what he needs you to be.
Stop thinking that if you do all the begging and craving mumbo jumbo will ever get him back.
That is pure nonsense! Get your feet back on the ground and be strong - for you and your ex boyfriend as well.